We Are Survivors

Before UWI

I didn’t know being in my twenties would feel like this. Who knew it was possible to feel even more insecure? I thought things would be different.

I’m finally getting to choose what I do with my life…which would have been great if I knew what I wanted to do with my life. I wanted the freedom of choice but now I feel even more trapped.

Secondary school possessed a certain level of certainty…but now that I stand on the brink of adulthood, I am certain only about one thing – I am uncertain about everything.

It really doesn’t help that everyone has such high expectations of me. I struggle not to disappoint everyone, but in doing so I often disappoint myself. What do I choose?

I don’t want to be a failure….but I also don’t want to be unhappy all of the time. These decisions are more stressful than the five courses I’m doing. Everyone else seems to have a clear vision in mind about what I should do with my life and why.

To be honest, it’s great. I don’t think I can do it, but they have some great ideas. I’m struggling to stay on top of my work, keep up with my club, and be social enough that no one asks me any hard questions like, “how are you really?”

Because I don’t know. I don’t know how I am.

I don’t know who I am. I do know that deadlines are approaching. My assignments are due, my reports are due, and I have exams to study for. Worst of all, the months are passing by quickly, graduation is approaching, the ultimate deadline. I thought I would have had it all figured out by now…after all, if I’m as smart as everyone else says, then I should have it all figured out, shouldn’t I?

All I have is confusion, hurt, anxiety, anger, and pain. It’s clear I can’t do this on my own, but who can I turn to? My parents won’t understand.

My friends are busy with their own lives, I don’t want to burden them. It’s just me…and I’m not nearly enough…

After UWI

 

Do those words resonate with you for one reason or another? They resonate with me too. They also resonate with the other peer counsellors that contributed to writing that post.

The reason we can all relate is because we are peers, we have certain similarities. We experience similar struggles during university, and we respond to them in similar ways.

We are more alike than different. We are peer counsellors, we are not here to judge you. We are not here to tell you that we have it all figured out, cause we don’t.

We’re not here to tell you life is all rainbows and butterflies, because it isn’t. But we are here for you. If you need to talk, we can talk. If you need to take a walk, we can do that too.

The only difference between us and you is that we have been trained by the Student and Psychological Services to use certain tools which would enable us to be effective peer counsellors. In addition to that training, we also have information about campus services that the average student may not have.

If you’re experiencing financial difficulties we’re not just going to say “talk about it, all your problems will go away,” this is where the training comes in. We know when to utilize certain methods.

Talking helps with a lot of emotional and mental issues, but talking doesn’t full you belly. We can’t fill your belly, but we can put you on to people who can.

 

We are the Peer Counselling Association.

 

Brejin, talk to meh.

 

 

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